Aku dah buang pasir, buang batu buang kahak, buang paku bawah tapak kaki aku. Aku undur kebelakang, aku terpijak kaca. Kaki aku penuh darah. Sial, itu sakit. Jadi aku pun mulakan langkah ke hadapan, 1,2,3 tapak dan aku berhenti. Aku jumpa satu permukaan luas dan bila aku pijak, kaki aku menggelongsor jatuh. Licin. Macam tengah main slide dan macam tengah pakai roller blade lepastu rolling atas ketulan ais di negara yang penuh dengan salji EVERY DECEMBER. Dan aku ambil emergency leave sampai bulan 9, next year.
Just, stop asking me why. I'll not gonna tell you why I lied. 2012 - finger crossed.
Have you ever feel bored of your life? And you just wanna quit but you seem so afraid of being called a quitter but you know that you ain't have any passions to do anything yet everything? Sumpah aku benci. Benci dengan rasa macam ni. Rasa celaka sejak mulanya tahun 2011, rasa hilang arah, rasa macam kau berdiri di tengah jalan yang penuh simpang tapi tak ada signboard. Rasa yang buat kau mencarut, dan makin lama carutan tu makan diri kau sendiri. Rasa paling pahit.
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? Or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Just, don't afraid to tell someone you love them. If you Do, they might break your heart and,if you Don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to fall for someone because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? You starting to tell your heart and decide whom to like and vice versa. But don't you know, you can't tell your heart what to do? It does it on its own. when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much. For fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. We tell lies when we are afraid. Afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But, everytime we tell a lie, the thing we fear GROWS stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Just jump.
We were all on Myspace. Even though it can't show to the world who's you going out with, having a relation with, whose your families and all but it still had a "Who I'd Like To Meet" column. Back then, we were all put our fav pictures with our special ones, tempek sebesar-besar alam on that column the pic of your soulmate and etc and on that time, we were surely look like an internet craver.
I did that too. But now since we all moved forward and leave Myspace behind, and getting on Facebook, we can't put pictures on our page no more. I mean on the profile page, since Facebook is much proper than Myspace, and the great thing is, it still make us like an attention seeker. Again. With the 'in a relationship' status with someone and the whole world knows it, and then people just wanting more, and it's actually lead to fights among your love ones and etc.
So yeah, these social sites are making us look pathetic and what worse is, WE ARE HELL YES PATHETIC. By updating status on what you're doing, cursing, spreading out rumors, creating so much enemies with your status(es), being so lame and often to go out living the exact real life instead of just stuck in your goddamn ass in front of the laptop, and then you tend to leave out the world matters just like that. We are the WTF generation like we brag on Twitter, but don't you know that you're actually a psycophatic lame cause you just can't live without internet connections and social websites?
Pity you. Pity us. Pity me. I should just stop and living my life happily with my love ones.. And you know what? That's only matter for now. Living my life with nobody is going to interrupt with.
That moment when you feel that your lungs ain't functioning, and you gasp for some air, and your heart's breaking and you know the time would come. It will, someday. Since my wallet is all fat with pennies, I'm thinking of grabbing a lil' bit times for me to pamper myself. It's being hectic you know, and I don't like 2011 that much, I need some kind of curing session to endure such gloomy and pathetically months of my life.
For being ease and being loved by someone, it's actually ain't change anything up at all. Yet, I am still faces with troublesome and I'm just not a great dealer. To choose and walk on my own path, I'm totally giving up my ass.